just checking in...

I can't believe I haven't even logged on since January.... so much has happened that I'm not really quite sure where to begin but it's a rare Saturday night when I'm actually sitting at home alone and I feel like I should post something. 

So here's what's happened since January...

I'm still dating Chris and have never been happier. He is absolutely amazing and I'm madly in love with him! 

I still work at Michels and I enjoy my job. I get to do fun things like plan the company picnic, work at golf outings and design ads/calendars/signs/brochures.

My little sister got married! The wedding was perfect and she was the most beautiful bride... I got to spend the entire day with her and had so much fun!

and last but not least... I turned (gulp) 30 in August. Chris and I took a week off work and headed to northern wisconsin. My parents have a camper on a little plot of land in the middle of the Nicolet National Forest that we went to a lot this summer. We spent every day out on the boat fishing and swimming. That night we went out with some friends and I survived my 1st day in my 30's. It was a beautiful week and made me actually look forward to the upcoming years...

Obviously more than 4 things happened since January but sometimes pictures are better than words so here's a few that better illustrate 2012...

1st snowmobiling trip

two of my favorites... my bf and my bff

with Ang and Jill

Ang, Jill and Jamie... girls night out

Chris and I on 4th of July

Northern Wisconsin - on the Wolf River

at a tiki bar party

on the Wolf River again

my 30th birthday!
at Rock the Green (best concert ever!)

with my bff, Katie

My little sister got married!!

My little sis and I on her wedding day
Chris and I at Sam's wedding
new friends
Chris and I at another wedding

with the love of my life :)

 So here I am... alive and well but just not spending much time online (with the exception of pinterest!). I have almost 900 unread emails but I still have tanlines from hours spent laying outside under the sun. Even with the cold approaching, I'd rather be outside than sitting on the couch with my macbook. I'd like to get back into blogging as a creative outlet... I do miss writing.... I just don't know if I can sit still long enough.....


moving on

So I had a big long list of things I wanted to accomplish over my winter break.... unfortunately, I don't think I can cross a single item off my list. But something even better than a goal with a check mark next to it happened, which surprises me because I'm a planner. I like to have a general plan, know what to expect, and checking things off a list is very satisfying to me. Sometimes you just need to let go... and I've found that is when some of the best things happen.

I had been struggling over the past few months to get back in the swing of things after ending a 6 year relationship. Even though it was the best possible decision and I don't regret (at all!), it was still an adjustment and change can be difficult to accept. Although I can be very spontaneous, I'm still very much a creature of habit. Moving 1,000 miles, starting a new job, living in a new house, and starting a new semester all at once was daunting. I feel as though I kind of went through the motions but I was still in shock emotionally. I built a wall and pushed aside my feelings so I didn't have to acknowledge them. I went through all the typical stages and grieved for a broken relationship, struggling with the feelings of stupidity and regret of wasting 6 years of my life.

After much contemplation, I've realized that my time was not wasted. Even though I've discovered things in the past few months that make me doubt the sincerity of the entire relationship, I've learned valuable lessons and collected so many experiences. I've made new friends, traveled new places, and now it's time to move on.

So that's what I've done. It's been a slow journey, but I did it at my own pace and with the help of so many supportive friends and family members.

My winter break has been perfect and productive in a non conventional, no to-do list kind of way. I ran into Chris (who I used to have a huge crush on in high school) the weekend before Christmas and we've been pretty much together ever since then. We have not seen each other in years but both just got out of long relationships and just click. Funny how things work out :) I also start school today... My first semester at University of Massachusetts Amherst. I'm taking 2 required courses, an anthropology class on human nature and a sustainable agriculture class. So far, 2012 has proved to be so much better than 2011... I'm actually excited about turning 30 and seeing what this new year has in store for me!

I have to get ready for work now, but here a few pictures to sum up my winter break...
Chris & I on the lake for ice softball

Jill & I on New Years Eve

me, Angela, Jill & her dog Denver

me & my sister on Christmas

new hair color & cut!

me, Jamie, Miranda & Lin - girls night out
Angela, Angela, Jill, me & Lin

Franklin & I